HELP me please I need answers...?

I'm 13 In a half about to turn 14 pretty soon. I was in a abusive relationship with an 26 year old. He was my boyfriend.. I finally left him about 3 months about and I'm still trying to get over him. I see a psychologist about my problems but she doesn't really seem to listen / understand what I went through. My parents never called in saying that I was a missing person cause I always told them that I was at a friend house spending 2week at there house.. I would say to my mom so she really never got worried. I was mentally abuse and physically abuse. I was cut, stabbed, burned, d, kicked, punched and more. Today I am Pregnant and having a baby boy. My ex Was sent to a mental hospital the court decide and he will not be able to get out until the judge thinks he should. The court did allow him to see me sometimes... But I don't really want to see him..... The court / the mental hospital say I will be on the other side of a clear gl that's not breakable he will not be about to touch me or anything but he be able to see me. My parents think I should see him so i can let my fear go away. Right now I'm thinking about hanging my self.. I know if I hang my self I will kill my self and my baby... But I'm so scared.. what if he gets out and comes looking for me .. I wouldn't know what to do. I really need someone to talk to at the moment. I already tried the suicide hotline but they are helping at the moment ... if someone would like to be and listening ear I would really accept that and be thankful. Please some just talk to me. Can someone email me through yahoo answers. I need to vent.